Day #3

The reason I call this "Peeling the Onion" is because over the last three and a half years, I've had to peel back innumerable layers of mistruths, hiding, fear, and weakness to discover that there is a courageous, hard-working, beautiful person in me.  I'm still perplexed when I am asked the question, "what do you like to do for fun?"  Fun? What's that??  For at least the last twelve years, I haven't really had 'me' time.  I'm taking this new life, the divorced, single-working-mom-of-two, overwhelmed life... discovering the person I stuffed away, tucked away, in a dark place....one peel at a time.
Day #3

Normal day ...Ionix Supreme, done....Vanilla Shake, done....got to work and had already had 24 oz. of water.  Again, I had to race into the office and use the bathroom as my body still adjusts to all the fluids in a short period of time plus the one hour commute.  I wish I loved my job.

I was putting the water down...had my second bottle...and finished it at lunch time.  Mmmm...mixed greens with turkey from Thanksgiving.  Can't believe how full I'm getting from the salad.  My co-worker and I looked through some newspapers to see what was going on for the Christmas season in our town.  So much to do, so little time.

For my afternoon snack, I ate an apple...cold, crunchy, sweet & sour.....satisfying.

I have been really busy with work and am having to fight to stay focused on not snacking.  The challenge came when I greeted the UPS driver at the door to the office.  He had a BIG BOX that had the words 'SNACK BASKET' printed on the side! Snack Basket!!!???!! Really!?!?  Ugh...the challenge i was going to be faced with.  My co-workers and I opened the basket...Phew! It was all SALTY stuff!  No sweets!!!  I was 'safe'....for now.  One thing I know about myself is ..I crave SWEET not SALTY.  How bout you??

I ended up staying at work a little later than I intended to finish up some things.  Right before I left, I went into the kitchen to put dishes in the dishwasher....ugh....there they were....the SNACKS....on the table for everyone to munch on.  I grabbed two tortilla chips....I ate one. After eating it, I quickly put the second one down.  I said to myself, "It's not worth it."...and I walked out.

I drank a third bottle (out of the five I'm 'encouraged' to drink) on my way home.  I called my older son and talked about his day, why he didn't want to go to Youth Group at church, and that I wanted to go through his binder when I got home.  He immediately got on the defensive. He's a 7th grader.  That, in itself, says a lot. When I got home we had a little chat about the way he spoke to me on the phone.  Because his little brother was at wrestling, I decided to put aside what I really needed to do to spend some 'quality' time with him.  We spent almost an hour and a half going through his notebook.  CRAZY. We were able to locate several incomplete assignments as well as throw away tons of old papers.  Amazing what it's like when you shed unwanted 'stuff' in your life.  My prayer is that he'll feel 'lighter' and will be able to focus due to the organization.

8pm...I HAVEN'T HAD MY SHAKE YET!!! ....What I love about Isagenix is, I don't have to think about a thing! ...I made a chocolate shake and was off to get my litte man from the wrestling carpool....back home by 8:45ish. Lunches packed...showers taken. 

It's now 9:45...kids are in bed....craving....I'm craving....I always used to grab a 'midnight snack' right before bed.  BIG BAD HABIT TO BREAK!  I grab a handful of almonds...6-8.  It's going outside of what I'm supposed to do...but it's better than where I came from !!!  Didn't beat myself up.  Was just happy to get my snack on without break the rules entirely..

4/5 waters... success!

I was tired....but couldn't fall asleep.  Too much in my head?  Too much to plan for with Christmas in just three weeks?  Ugh.  1 a.m....zzzzzzz.

Day #3....small piece peeled away.