The reason I call this "Peeling the Onion" is because over the last three and a half years, I've had to peel back innumerable layers of mistruths, hiding, fear, and weakness to discover that there is a courageous, hard-working, beautiful person in me. I'm still perplexed when I am asked the question, "what do you like to do for fun?" Fun? What's that?? For at least the last twelve years, I haven't really had 'me' time. I'm taking this new life, the divorced, single-working-mom-of-two, overwhelmed life... discovering the person I stuffed away, tucked away, in a dark place....one peel at a time.
Day #3
Normal day ...Ionix Supreme, done....Vanilla Shake, done....got to work and had already had 24 oz. of water. Again, I had to race into the office and use the bathroom as my body still adjusts to all the fluids in a short period of time plus the one hour commute. I wish I loved my job.
I was putting the water down...had my second bottle...and finished it at lunch time. Mmmm...mixed greens with turkey from Thanksgiving. Can't believe how full I'm getting from the salad. My co-worker and I looked through some newspapers to see what was going on for the Christmas season in our town. So much to do, so little time.
For my afternoon snack, I ate an apple...cold, crunchy, sweet & sour.....satisfying.
I have been really busy with work and am having to fight to stay focused on not snacking. The challenge came when I greeted the UPS driver at the door to the office. He had a BIG BOX that had the words 'SNACK BASKET' printed on the side! Snack Basket!!!???!! Really!?!? Ugh...the challenge i was going to be faced with. My co-workers and I opened the basket...Phew! It was all SALTY stuff! No sweets!!! I was 'safe'....for now. One thing I know about myself is ..I crave SWEET not SALTY. How bout you??
I ended up staying at work a little later than I intended to finish up some things. Right before I left, I went into the kitchen to put dishes in the dishwasher....ugh....there they were....the SNACKS....on the table for everyone to munch on. I grabbed two tortilla chips....I ate one. After eating it, I quickly put the second one down. I said to myself, "It's not worth it."...and I walked out.
I drank a third bottle (out of the five I'm 'encouraged' to drink) on my way home. I called my older son and talked about his day, why he didn't want to go to Youth Group at church, and that I wanted to go through his binder when I got home. He immediately got on the defensive. He's a 7th grader. That, in itself, says a lot. When I got home we had a little chat about the way he spoke to me on the phone. Because his little brother was at wrestling, I decided to put aside what I really needed to do to spend some 'quality' time with him. We spent almost an hour and a half going through his notebook. CRAZY. We were able to locate several incomplete assignments as well as throw away tons of old papers. Amazing what it's like when you shed unwanted 'stuff' in your life. My prayer is that he'll feel 'lighter' and will be able to focus due to the organization.
8pm...I HAVEN'T HAD MY SHAKE YET!!! ....What I love about Isagenix is, I don't have to think about a thing! ...I made a chocolate shake and was off to get my litte man from the wrestling carpool....back home by 8:45ish. Lunches packed...showers taken.
It's now 9:45...kids are in bed....craving....I'm craving....I always used to grab a 'midnight snack' right before bed. BIG BAD HABIT TO BREAK! I grab a handful of almonds...6-8. It's going outside of what I'm supposed to do...but it's better than where I came from !!! Didn't beat myself up. Was just happy to get my snack on without break the rules entirely..
4/5 waters... success!
I was tired....but couldn't fall asleep. Too much in my head? Too much to plan for with Christmas in just three weeks? Ugh. 1 a.m....zzzzzzz.
Day #3....small piece peeled away.
Thursday, December 5, 2013
Day #2
I did it! I made it through Day #1!!! The first thing I noticed when I woke up was my belly didn't feel like a blown up balloon ready to pop. That's a nice feeling. I did get on the scale just to see how much I PEED away! I promised myself not to get back on until Day #11
I did my morning routine of Ionix Supreme and a shake plus I remembered to pack my snack! As I drove into work, I heard this quote on the Christian radio station. The quote was, "Instead of telling GOD how big your problems are... Tell your PROBLEMS how big your GOD is!"
During my drive, I chatted with my mom (hands free of course). My parents are my #1 fans and cheerleaders! She asked how my first day went....I said great....except I forgot the afternoon snack yesterday. She urged me to 'be careful' with my snack....to which i replied, "Even if I ate FIFTY baby carrots, it's better than if I had FIVE chocolate chip cookies!"
I'm trying to keep this in perspective...what I'm doing is better than what I've BEEN doing!...to not beat myself up about 'slipping'....even though carrots is far from a slip up...and I would never eat 50! Keepin' it real.
It was a crazy busy day at work but I took time to head over to a great salad joint called Sweet Green...mesclun, quinoa, roasted broccoli, red onion, curried cauliflower, and chicken...with vinaigrette dressing. It was TO DIE FOR!!
Work was very stressful and I was feeling the need to munch...celery!
I left work and rushed home to grab my boys....wrestling practice...AGAIN! I made sure I made my shake before I ran out the door.
I dropped my older son off and took the younger one with me to hit the grocery store for a few things...for their lunches and MINE! Some of the healthy decisions I made were dry roasted, unsalted almonds, (didn't think I'd be crazy about them but the CRUNCH is quite satisfying!), a box of quinoa, a bag of already made brown rice and quinoa, hummus, and some small granny smith SOUR and CRUNCHY apples. I was feeling pretty good about my decisions.
Wrestling was over and home we went....I was tired....I'm not sure if I'm tired because of the new way of eating, lack of sleep, being a slug...???
I chatted with my cousin, Carmel, who is also my Isagenix 'coach.' She is so great at helping me keep things in 'real time.' Carmel expressed to me, before I even began the program, to just look at this right now as Isagenix being the main source of food for me right now. I'm trying not to over think this too much...not think too far into the future...to keep it close...for fear of failure. I have to take baby steps.
I'm having a bit of trouble drinking all the water. It's A LOT of water. Again, I'm looking at it as 'it's more water than I was drinking before' and to keep striving to drink more. The more I drink, the more I pee, the more toxins I free my body of.
Day #2...done!
I did my morning routine of Ionix Supreme and a shake plus I remembered to pack my snack! As I drove into work, I heard this quote on the Christian radio station. The quote was, "Instead of telling GOD how big your problems are... Tell your PROBLEMS how big your GOD is!"
During my drive, I chatted with my mom (hands free of course). My parents are my #1 fans and cheerleaders! She asked how my first day went....I said great....except I forgot the afternoon snack yesterday. She urged me to 'be careful' with my snack....to which i replied, "Even if I ate FIFTY baby carrots, it's better than if I had FIVE chocolate chip cookies!"
I'm trying to keep this in perspective...what I'm doing is better than what I've BEEN doing!...to not beat myself up about 'slipping'....even though carrots is far from a slip up...and I would never eat 50! Keepin' it real.
It was a crazy busy day at work but I took time to head over to a great salad joint called Sweet Green...mesclun, quinoa, roasted broccoli, red onion, curried cauliflower, and chicken...with vinaigrette dressing. It was TO DIE FOR!!
Work was very stressful and I was feeling the need to munch...celery!
I left work and rushed home to grab my boys....wrestling practice...AGAIN! I made sure I made my shake before I ran out the door.
I dropped my older son off and took the younger one with me to hit the grocery store for a few things...for their lunches and MINE! Some of the healthy decisions I made were dry roasted, unsalted almonds, (didn't think I'd be crazy about them but the CRUNCH is quite satisfying!), a box of quinoa, a bag of already made brown rice and quinoa, hummus, and some small granny smith SOUR and CRUNCHY apples. I was feeling pretty good about my decisions.
Wrestling was over and home we went....I was tired....I'm not sure if I'm tired because of the new way of eating, lack of sleep, being a slug...???
I chatted with my cousin, Carmel, who is also my Isagenix 'coach.' She is so great at helping me keep things in 'real time.' Carmel expressed to me, before I even began the program, to just look at this right now as Isagenix being the main source of food for me right now. I'm trying not to over think this too much...not think too far into the future...to keep it close...for fear of failure. I have to take baby steps.
I'm having a bit of trouble drinking all the water. It's A LOT of water. Again, I'm looking at it as 'it's more water than I was drinking before' and to keep striving to drink more. The more I drink, the more I pee, the more toxins I free my body of.
Day #2...done!
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
Day #1
Day One ....Isagenix transformation...Val transformation
Disgusted...I got on the scale first thing in the morning for the first time in 6 months or so. I had to measure all my bumps and curves and was repulsed. Why is it that I have allowed myself to get to this point. Not only am I unhealthy...I am trapped in a body covered in fat and flesh. I don't like it.
I started this day with the attitude that it's just that...A DAY. One day at a time is how I got to where I am...one day at a time is how I'll get back to the person I've lost over the last 20 years. If I am to believe that 'I can do ALL things through Christ our Lord who strengthens me," then I have to believe that I can do this! Shed the weight and peel back the layers to this onion that has kept me protected for all these years. If I made it through 2012, a year from H~E~L~L, a year spent in court, a year of fighting on the FRONT LINE, then I have what it takes to conquer this demon that I hide behind...I don't know what to call the demon yet....but it's manifesting as the controlling monster that's causing me to NOT take care of my health. Maybe that demon is ME.
I woke up and drank my Ionix Supreme drink. Got ready for work...made my shake and drank it before leaving the house with my two kiddos in tow. It didn't taste 'yucky' and was something easy that this single mom of two could handle.
By the time I got to the office, after my usual one hour commute, I had to pee so badly! Not to be totally gross, but I think I went to the bathroom about 15 times!
The day was easy...Ionix Supreme...Shake/accelerator...snack bar...salad with tuna and vinaigrette...Oops, forgot my afternoon snack...Home by 5:45ish...grabbed carrots...accelerator...drank my shake on the road as I drove my son to wrestling practice....and I was done! No more grazing or picking. That's going to be a hard habit to break. No more eating at 9:00pm...another bad habit.
I was on my way to the first day of health...drinking half my body weight in water each day...staying focused...not getting OVER excited...not looking into the future...just one day...one day...one more peel off the onion.
I got this....
Disgusted...I got on the scale first thing in the morning for the first time in 6 months or so. I had to measure all my bumps and curves and was repulsed. Why is it that I have allowed myself to get to this point. Not only am I unhealthy...I am trapped in a body covered in fat and flesh. I don't like it.
I started this day with the attitude that it's just that...A DAY. One day at a time is how I got to where I am...one day at a time is how I'll get back to the person I've lost over the last 20 years. If I am to believe that 'I can do ALL things through Christ our Lord who strengthens me," then I have to believe that I can do this! Shed the weight and peel back the layers to this onion that has kept me protected for all these years. If I made it through 2012, a year from H~E~L~L, a year spent in court, a year of fighting on the FRONT LINE, then I have what it takes to conquer this demon that I hide behind...I don't know what to call the demon yet....but it's manifesting as the controlling monster that's causing me to NOT take care of my health. Maybe that demon is ME.
I woke up and drank my Ionix Supreme drink. Got ready for work...made my shake and drank it before leaving the house with my two kiddos in tow. It didn't taste 'yucky' and was something easy that this single mom of two could handle.
By the time I got to the office, after my usual one hour commute, I had to pee so badly! Not to be totally gross, but I think I went to the bathroom about 15 times!
The day was easy...Ionix Supreme...Shake/accelerator...snack bar...salad with tuna and vinaigrette...Oops, forgot my afternoon snack...Home by 5:45ish...grabbed carrots...accelerator...drank my shake on the road as I drove my son to wrestling practice....and I was done! No more grazing or picking. That's going to be a hard habit to break. No more eating at 9:00pm...another bad habit.
I was on my way to the first day of health...drinking half my body weight in water each day...staying focused...not getting OVER excited...not looking into the future...just one day...one day...one more peel off the onion.
I got this....
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